Depression and Violence?

Is there a connection between depression and violence? I've been really depressed for quite some time but there's something else. At random times when I see someone I want to hurt them, both physically and verbally, especially if there's a hammer or knife nearby. I haven't done it yet but I'm afraid oneday I'm going to lose control and do it. I thought this was a recent thing but I looked back in my diaries, this has been going on since middle school. I'm 21 now. I'm at a point now where I want to just end it but I have a fear of death. I'm afraid to ask for help because I get off my parents insurance and on to my own in 3 weeks and whenever I try and tell this to my parents I get the "grow up" attitude. Plus I've been lying to them for the last 4 years. But I'm afraid of telling the truth because I know the consequences. I lied only to them, not to anyone else. I feel like I've lost people to turn to, even my own brother. what should I do?

There have been times where I wished I could just start drinking or something so I could at least feel temporary relief but I promised myself never to drink, do drugs, etc. and I just can't get myself to break a rule I promised myself.

Get to a doctor ASAP. Your description of yourself was me 5 years ago. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. You could be experiencing this disease which causes extreme and sometimes dangerous mood swings, tendencies to hurt yourself or others, drug and alcohol abuse among other things. There are medications that can stabilize your mood swings. My family didn't want anything to do with me at one point but not that I've gotten help and they know what was going on I have mended relationships. There are ways to get medical help if you don't have insurance. Go to your state health department or social services and explain what's going on and your lack of insurance. Who knows you could end up like me and receive disability benefits. My doctor still will not allow me to work. It takes a while to get back on track so I receive my disability payments and have Medicare. And no, I'm not embarrassed about it. If you want any other information or just need someone who understands what you are going through you can contact me @ ahappymarriage@yahoo.com. Good luck :) :) P.S. If your parents won't help you get what you need find someone who will.

There are ways that you can get financial help with any medical issues. Go to the local health department and tell them that you need help, they will send you in the right directions.

It sounds like it's beyond depression. You should see a psychiatrist, you know. Your tendency to want to hurt people randomly sounds schizophrenic to me.

Counseling now!!! Call the doctor up and make an appointment for tomorrow and tell him your feelings you need to get into a physiologist and you need to do this before your insurance runs out.

I understand what you are feeling but you will need to learn to channel it and once you get into a therapist I believe it would be covered under pre existing condition and they will help cover costs.

You just need to learn how to deal with these feelings, And it will take time and honestly we all feel this to one degree or another its just how we deal with it that counts.

Justmem, being schizophrenic doesn't mean you have violent thoughts or a desire to carry them out its a form of dementia!

Schizophrenia (from the Greek word 蟽蠂喂味慰蠁蟻苇谓蔚喂伪, or schizophreneia, meaning "split mind") is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception or expression of reality, most commonly manifest as auditory hallucinations and paranoid or bizarre delusions, and by significant social or occupational dysfunction. Onset of symptoms typically occurs in young adulthood, with a 0-5-1% of the population affected.



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Sorry to hear about your position, I've been in the same position and am currently going through a session of it now. It's normal to be depressed and want to hurt others or yourself. Your mind is lashing out cause the suffering of the depression is breaking your sanity. I would reccomend you do some research on Bipolar. And also if you become too frightened going inpatient somewhere voluntarily means they can't just keep you unless you display mannerism of wanting to hurt yourself or others. Good luck and stop lying to the people around you, they may not understand, but they may start to see you really need the help, if not they don't truly care about your sanity to begin with.

RUN, don't walk to the nearest Physco therapist.

It sounds like you may have a chemical imbalance in your brain, much like that which causes depression. Unwanted thoughts are very much a part of depression and this condition can be helped and cured with medication. See your family doctor and confide in him, if your parents are not understanding.
Depression gets worse if left untreated.

Hello Christ,
Dont blame yourself for your attitude. Why v must get depressed? Trully speaking this is the age people use to get out of eveything. They make themself depressed to choose an alternative like drugs, drings, girls... so to come out of this " FIX A PROPER AIM" Think of your nation. Be an optimist. Love your work and do the work which you love. Only you can make your destiny my dear. Come out my dear come out. Go to your room and shout aloud that I am completely free from my worries. I can and I will. Say the Following SLOGAN: I AM THE HAPPIEST MAN IN THE WORLD AND I WILL MAKE MY PARENTS TO FEEL GREAT ABOUT ME.. congrats my dear hope you will be happy here after.. Still not then go to yoga classes.This is the time to mould ourself if not us then who else. Enjoy the life. . Take care.. hope i will see a Great Christ in the following days.. Waiting for the change in you my buddy...

You should talk to your family doctor they can guide you in the right direction for counseling and medication. :You sound like you are in a state of depression and have been for some time. The medication will help you to see things in a different light, more consistent thoughts, and allow you the peace to live. You should also get some counseling to help you deal with the feelings of hurting someone. This isn't a normal feeling and you are on your way to doing something that I am sure you will regret. please get help soon, if your parents won't then make an appointment yourself.

yes- when somebody is depressed, they think that everybody should feel their pain and they can't do something to somebody else mentally so they do something physically. don't start drinking or doing drugs. talk to a councilor.

You need help understanding what the source of your anger is. Don't wait too long to talk with a professional. Take control of having your needs met. Needs - not wants. You need to face up to what's going on for you in a logical way. You really don't want to harm yourself or anyone else.

Good for you for trying to reach out. Tell yourself you're not the kind of creepoid who would ever attack a person and hurt them. That's a start.

YOU ARE OKEY!! YOU ARE APPEALLING TO ANY ONE WHO CAN HELP AND THAT SHOWS ME YOU ARE CONCERNED WITH THESE FEELINGS AND YOU REALLY DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE!! GOOD FOR YOU!! YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO FEEL THIS BAD AND THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT HERE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU AND CAN HELP YOU UNTIL YOU FEEL HAPPY INSIDE, EVERYONE DESERVES TO FEEL HAPPY!! PLEASE CALL LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
I WOULD "NOT" TELL MY FAMILY UNTIL AFTER YOU CALL THIS NUMBER!! GOOD LUCK!!! THE NUMBER AGAIN IS LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Yes there is a connection. Your sense of hopelessness and confusion are definitely signs of depression. What concerns me is the progression of your thinking. No one "snaps" as some refer to. It's always a progression of things that have happened before thinking leads to actions. Can you show your parents what you wrote here? Whatever the financial situation, your mental health is what's important here. There are other sources of health care that can support your needs. Your parents plan may not even have anything in their plan to cover mental health. Has this been checked? Either way, you need to get the help you need. NOW. Remember you have friends here who will listen.

Girl, you're being honest with yourself, now it is time to be honest with your parents. You need to get some help and you need someone you can trust to talk to. Try a counselor. They won't judge you and will listen. You may have a mental disorder that they can help you with like I do. Going around in life the way you are is causing you way too much stress. It isn't worth it. Get it under control before it controls you.

Sweetie,for everyone's sake make an appointment to see a Psychiatrist ASAP(yesterday is possible).He should give you Medication after you first visit.You're 21 you don't need your parents' help,nor should you bother them until you start to feel better or your Psychiatrist can have a chat with them at the most opportune time.Once your parents see that this is serious they'll get you all the help you need-just like us trying to get you started in the right direction and we're only strangers.Do not start drinking for Christ's sake.You'll be even worse off.Did you see a professional who told you that you are depressed?Pick up the 'phone now and dial!Let us know how you are getting on.All the best to you.Please hold out or your urges to do violence.This advice is from Australia.We also care about you.

One of the main roots to depression is anger. Anger that is suppressed and builds creating enormous negative energy.
The question is: where is that anger coming from? Was there abuse in your family life? What do you think of you? And, where did those ideas come from? Is there any family history of manic/depression or bipolar behavior? You must take charge of your Life. Insurance isn't the problem. There is a Mental Health facility in every major city. There is a mental health department at every major hospital. You need to be prorated so the state or federal government will pay for your therapy. Call your nearest major hospital emergency room and ask for the "psychiatrist on call." Tell this doctor, everything. You are in charge of your Life. It is time to take charge of your Life and find the professional help that you need. You will grow and this burden will be lifted as your therapy progresses. And, you will find confidence and self-esteem which will lead to an internal happiness and maturity. Stop procrastinating and call your local hospital, now. Use that negative energy to produce positive results in your Life. This is simply part of the "growing-up process." Later, you will find a joy in asking for help and the maturity that it will bring. I believe in You.

I would get some help before it is to late. You don't want to hurt someone or yourself there are alot of programs out there that can help. I've thought of ending it myself before and the good lord above always shows me another way. I hope you find what you are looking for soon good luck and God Bless.