Why do i enjoy being antisocial?

i have absollutely no tolerance for people that dont do drugs or alchohal, dont have a vast knowledge of firearms, and people who disrespect the country. i only hang out with people who fit that mold. im constantly thinking about how im going to die, most of the time in a hail of gunfire for some reason, violence excites me to the point where if im not doing somthing that has an aphernt danger to myself or to others, i get very violently angry for some reason.i dont seek help for this because i have molded my lifestyle after violence so much that i cant picture myself being a normal posotive role model in society. this is why i dont seek help. why do i enjoy death and destruction so much? can i do somthing other than going to a doctor to help this addiction to violence?

you are too screwed up for help

Lots and lots of prayer:)

Probably not going to change without the help of counseling and/or medication. Most people get upset with debauchery on some level, but don't wish to cause anyone pain to cure it.

Make an appointment with a psychologist, if you wish to stay the same, it sounds like you will eventually end up in prison (danger to others)

Go to a mental intuition (which is help) but think about this way you won't have to do anything but sit around and talk or maybe go to a church.

No one repeats behavior they don't get something out of. What you have to do is figure out what you are getting out of defining your life by violence and death. Possibly, you feel that you're not alive unless you have just survived some horrendous risk. However, the fact that you become angry when denied this risk makes me think there might be a neurological component to your problem. You might get seen by a neurologist in addition to a mental health person. It's highly unlikely that you can overcome this on your own, and I think the fact that you are asking the question means part of you is not happy with the situation and wants it to change. Don't wait until you do die in a hail of gunfire.

wow...im afraid if i say any thing you will get mad at me and hunt me down like a dog...

well this might sound silly but try buying violent shooting video games. when u want violence or just plan angry, turn on ur game station and fire away and shoot ur troubles away. but LAY OFF THE DRUGS AND ALCOHAL. they are the base of ur violent ways. stop the drugs and alcohal for a few weeks and u can really see the difference. enjoying violence and destruction is something quite a handful of boys enjoy so ur not screwed yet. ur "addiction" to violence is not an addiction. it is only something in ur personality that you will defiently grow out of in the years still to come. however, it is best to either check and research online or at libraryies on ur "violent behavior" and talk to ur doctor. they know best and they want to help u. me, im just text written by some 14 yearold grl that wishes to die at times XD but seriously, u dont have to listen to the part with the video games but definently talk to ur doctor or discuss this behavior with ur parents and counslors/psycharatrist. it MAY be just ur personallity but it can also be a chemical inbalance of ur hormones that will eventually fade away.

One thing that comes to mind is that you may be suffering from depression. This is signified by the fact that your all ways looking for an extreme emotion (hate) also the prospect of death makes you face your own mortality, which in turn makes you feel alive or to feel something.The problem with depression is that its hard to pick that you have it, it effects people in different ways. A lot of people who are depressed and don't know it tend to cut them self, once again to feel pain a strong emotion. As for when your feeling violent grab a violent video game and get out your aggression by playing it (it works for me when I'm in a violent mood, fighting games are good).