What could this possibly be?

Ok, to start off, I'm 13. I get bored really easily, and I get depressed even easier. I've cut myself several times out of being depressed, and even more odd, I drank the blood. I can't stand smiling in public, and I detest it when strangers smile and wave at me. I have no close friends because I fear letting someone get THAT close to me. I sometimes feel like the world around me has collapsed, and that nobody honestly cares about me. What could be wrong? And please try to avoid simply ruling it out as teenage problems; I only turned 13 3 months ago.

Yes... I had a friend last year. I almost let her really close to me.. I had a really big crush on a guy... and she wrote a fake note to him saying these unearthly disgusting things.. I never have fully forgiven her for it; because he hated me after it and before that he and I were friends.. but that wasn't all, either. She also had a crush on someone. And when she was caught by a teacher with a love note she had written to him, she said it was made by me. And this year, I have a new set of friends... I just won't ever let them really know me. It doesn't seem like alot, but I lost alot when she did these things. I was almost onsidered cool until she wrote the first note... and I have 2 twin friends whose step dad is a sex offender and isn't supposed to be around them... and it hurts me a hell of a lot to think about how he could be hurting them.

Self mutilation, depression, boredom, paranoia; you could be bipolar. Contact your local MHMR and talk to them. Make an appointment to see a psychiatrist. There are medications that will help.

It is a phase, please try not to worry about it that much, you'll grow out of it.

I have had a lot of trouble with depression and I have had a lot of psychotherapy. There is something wrong in your family life. I hope you will seek help; family therapy would be best. If you get your whole family into therapy, they can learn how to live together in a way that lets everyone help each other instead of hurting each other, as probably is happening now.

A psychologist can help you with talk therapy. A psychiatrist can help with medicine for many types of problems. (Psychiatrists are better at this than a family physician because it is their specialty.)

You seem to have done a good job of recognizing a problem. I hope you will seek help for it.

Best wishes!

1st please stop hurting yourself, 2nd i think if you let some 1 get a little close u probably would c that everybody is not out to hurt you. Another thing has anyone hurt u?

I am very sorry that you are going through this miserable phase in your life. It is only that- it's a stage that you are going through, and it will pass eventually. I would see a therapist immediately- someone you can trust. Tell them all these things that you have told us here. Be honest, so that he or she can help you get better. I don't know what your diagnosis may be- it could be a number of things- Borderline personality disorder, OCD, depression, anxiety- but it certainly sounds like severe depression (maybe Bi-Polar or unipolar depression?). But don't take anyone's word for it...certainly not any non-professionals here in 'answers'. I encourage you to talk to a psychologist about this as soon as you can. Please don't be ashamed- this is something that you can't help. I know about mental illness, because I suffer from it. I have OCD and depression, among other things. Good luck and God bless. You may need to start taking medications, and going to therapy. But trust me, there is hope for you!

What is wrong is that you have clinical depression. You also seem to stay at a certain mood. If you decide to go to the psychiatrist she will precribe something for the depression and a mood stabilizer which will keep you from getting too sad. Also see a therapist, talk to your parents about what is going on. Depression is hereditary so it is likely one of your parents or someone from your immediate family has experienced or is still experiencing the symptoms you have. If it rings a bell with anyone you know consider talking to them. Please know that you are not a freak or odd. It is okay to be sad. I started getting severe depression when I was around your age and with counseling I kept it under control. Cutting is serious. You need to definitely discuss this with someone you trust. Usually one cuts to feel pain aside from feeling sad all the time. You are going to be okay but only when you are ready too. Start seeing what kind of activties you like to do , like sports, dancing, art, whatever it is do it. Even if it collecting rocks or stamps. You must be smart if you get bored easily because that means you are brain wants to learn more. You will be okay but please get help or talk to someone. You will always be alone and sad if you don't have anyone to talk too and trust me that is not going to help. If you let people in sometimes you can get hurt but for the most part you won't. You are beautiful.

I hate to give the "Dear Abby" answer, but you need to seek help immediately. Find someone you trust: A parent, adult relative, teacher, counselor, clergyman, etc., and tell them what you're telling us here. A mental health issue that has developed into self-mutilation is a serious one, and can only get worse without proper treatment.

I wish you the best of luck!

I agree with Zbelle60, it sounds like bipolar disorder, it often shows up in teenage years, the best thing to do is call your local hospital, ask for their mental health unit or child psychiatry unit, and make an appointment for an evaluation. They will just talk to you, ask you questions about why you feel something is wrong, symptoms etc, and if they think its worth going forward, they'll make an appt with a psychiatrist to see you. I know that with cutting oneself, and feeling anti-social, you are not in control, you can't help it, nor can you "snap out of it" or use will-power. Sometimes our bodies and brains do the best they can with the chemicals they produce, even if there's an imbalance, and the end result is we act in a way society deems inappropriate.

Take this seriously, go for an evaluation, it might just be the docs say its nothing serious, but one never knows unless one finds out.

I don't think that this is just a growing up as a teen problem. I also had problems that resembled a little of this, but not as drastic. Do you think that maybe you have some kind of repressed memories of something that you may have seen or something that may have happened to you that you've either never told or did'nt know how to deal with? I had a problem that stemmed from being molested by my father at the age of 3. This problem you have could be from something else, but talking to someone who cares can help. You feel as though maybe it doesn't matter if something happens to you, that nobody cares. And maybe the cutting is a way for you to see that yeah, you still feel even though you are numb to your other feelings.

I am now 25yrs. old an have a happy great life, but I would not have been able to overcome my childhood without help. I told my mother and to my surprise and delight she believed me and all the things I was told would happen if I told never happened, they were lies. My mother got me into counseling and I have been in counseling off and on only when I needed it. I still have a few problems w/ anxiety and aggression caused from stress and am on Wellbutron. It has helped a lot and I do not feel drugged or anything.

Also, if you are on any illegal drugs that can alter your moods and psycosis without you realizing what is going on. Please realize that there is someone out there who cares. You are not alone in your feelings although it feels that way sometimes and you think no one understands. Belive me I do, it can seem like such a worthless cause to keep living this life. Just remember that the Phoenix rose from the ashes. God sends angels in different forms, just look around and be willing to open up. We are here.

You definitely need to seek counseling or see a psychiatrist for a diagnosis of your problem. Please tell your parents and have them find a psychiatrist as soon as possible. This sounds pretty serious. You could be suffering from a severe case of depression but I don't know for sure. Try to seek help as soon as possible. I wish you the best!

It sounds like me and you have alot in common.....really alot but most ppl woundn't understand. Its hard to carry on when no one loves you huh??

1. i think that you have not found purpose in life.

2. i think you will be tempted (if you have not already been) to kill yourself. my brother did that, my mom and sisters and i have all considered it at times. i beg you not to do it.

3. things will not change until you experience a change in what it is that makes you go from day to day. if you can believe it from someone who has been where you are, it is possible for you to change things. maybe not the external events of your life, but the internal response that you have to those events.

wow.. i wouldnt want to be in your place. but plz, dont go on thinking eveyone hates u. maybe youre hanging out with the wrong kind of people. i stopped trying to be "cool" and i have my little group of friends who are all rejects. we have tonnes of fun together. another thing, it's not bad to let people know who u really are, once u know that they're trustworthy.