Like being sad, hate being happy!?

This may sound crazy, but I hate being happy, and somewhat enjoy being sad! I don't know why. And when I'm sad, I seem to write better poems,one of mine is below, I've been posting all over for help! I was just wondering a few things one, why do I enjoy being sad? two, have you ever been like this? three do you like my poem? four, can you give me some feed back on this?
Why go on?
I give you love but you don't give any back.

Why do we go on if it's love that we lack?

When you do this to me I feel uneasy inside,

Sometimes so much, I wish I could hide.

When you do this to me I try hard not to cry.

And most of the time I think I should die.

Just stop pretending that you care,

Because so many lies are too much to bear.

You've obviously been hurt so often, you find being happy is not worth the effort. You don't HATE being happy, you just find it very hard to be upbeat when life is not being good to you.

I think you prefer to be sad b/c you feel those feelings much deeper than you (personally) feel happiness. Generally, feelings of sad and helplessness are the most raw emotions. It's possible that you're just a more intense person, regardless of what it is you are sensing.

I am like this. I like to put myself in a sad mood by listening to depressing music sometimes. I do it to know that I still do have feelings. Just kinda like a systems check.

I do like your poem. I wish I could critique it but I don't know enough about poetry to do that. Looks good to me!!

U should definitely tell your doctor about that.It may be first stage depression.

Umm...idk why but im like that too...i enjoy feeling sad i guess because i know if im sad i cant rele ge thurt as badly...idk thats just me

Your very young I suppose, I was like that the poetry, the unrequited/disappointed love thing, Make the most of it it's great!
Good luck and God Bless!

There's nothing wrong in being sad,
Like me it's something that we won't miss.
But like your poem its not all bad.
That's my feedback so make a wish!

i like being sad/depressed too! I dont know if its a good thing tho, lol.
you probobly enjoy being sad because, well for me, when im sad i get more attention and i like attention. so maybe thats y?
i LOVE the poem. i feel like this a lot.

It's not really that you enjoy being sad, it's actually a comfort thing. I have a lot of clients in situations like this. You've been hurt and sad for so long that the idea of happiness is completely foreign. You've become comfortable with that sadness, and therefore, you "enjoy" it.
Writing is a good way to get these deep feelings out. And of course, I have to say find a therapist whom you feel comfortable with.
Good luck!

Why don't you experiment with psychotherapy in order to expereince the full range of emotions? And yes, it is a lovely poem.

You don't enjoy being sad, you can't help feeling sad when you are upset; it happens to the best of us too. Yah, I feel that way more often than I like to" past 7 months I'm trying to get over someone I love & it's not a happy golucky ride believe me.

I think your peom is truly beautiful & deep in a rather sad way. From your peom, I see a hurt soul trying to comprehend the trails of being hurt & finding reason to go on, yet trying to find inner strength to be strong. Be strong & pray, you will find joy in your life! best luckxxx

your perception mite b wrong when u think your sad ure actully happy and when your happy ure actually sad