Sad/lonely & don't know what to do any more?

Hello

About 8 months ago I decided to leave my job as I had feeings for someone i worked with. This person was my manager & was also female too. We'd worked together for over a year & got on great. Throughout this time she also gave me the impression she was attracted to me too....so that's when I thought it best to leave my job so it didn't get awkward for any of us.
Anyway, not long after i left, i did tell her my feelings but things turned bad. She not only lied to me but also said things behind my back to my other work collegues.

The thing is it was the best job i'd ever had and I miss everyone & everyhing so so much. I have no other friends in my life & as i feel really sad it's such a struggle to try & start all over again.

Before I left we all promised to meet up for drinks, but that doesn't happen and it makes me feel so left out. I have no one left.

I'm running out of space so i hope i will be able to add a little more............

I've only seen her once & are back on speaking/friendly terms but i never see them anymore.
I work from home now and when i do go out i feel so lost & empty.
When i worked there i had so much to look forward to...going away for work, work itself, the people & a social life.
It seems as though i lost everything for just being honest with someone. Someone i truely thought the world of & thought i could trust. At the very least someone to call a friend. I know i didn't misread her intentions, but it feels as though i am the only one who is hurting an being punished.
I guess because i know what they'll all be up to at this time of the year it just makes me sad, when it's just me.

It takes a while for me to trust people and for the 1st time in a very long while i thought i could trust this person and people i once called my friends.

I feel as though i'll never be able to fully forget or move on from what happened.

I wish things could have been different

Thank you

Wow, that is a super sad story, but you felt something and went for it. And really, that is admirable. Not too many people would have the guts to do that, and yes, it took a lot for you to trust and you were vulnerable, but that is some real living and that is commendable. You will find someone else who is special and you will find another job that will be just as satisfying. Hang in there, good people will find their way.

OK...

Everything is going to be okay. We all get lonely. Just don't do anything stupid like drink and drive. Just be a good person...

You're working out of the home now? Are you earning as much as you did while working? Are you looking for another position like you had before? Is there any chance you good get your old job back? So you feel in love and then got rejected. It is very sad, and unfortunately happens a lot throughout life. All you can do is move on, try to smile, and look ahead to prepare a way for yourself. It will take time to heal as you put so much into this for her hoping or thinking she felt the same way for you. So give it time, and then find someone who will love you back. Good luck!

you REALLY NEED TO GET A JOB WORKING WITH THE PUBLIC. i DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF JOB YOU HAD, OR WHAT YOUR QUALIFICATIONS ARE, BUT DOING SOMETHING WHERE YOU ARE AROUND PEOPLE ALL DAY LONG WOULD HELP YOU. I TOO HAVE TROUBLE COMMUNICATING WITH PEOPLE AND OPENING UP. I HAVE A REALLY HARD TIME MAKING NEW FRIENDS. I HAVE SOME VERY DEAR OLD FRIENDS BUT I WOULD LIKE TO BE WITH OTHER NEW PEOPLE TOO. I DO A JOB WHERE I TRAVEL AND SEE DIFFERENT PEOPLE EVERY DAY. I HAVE A REALLY GOOD TIME DOING THIS BECAUSE I CAN TALK TO PEOPLE THAT DON'T REALLY KNOW ME AND I CAN COMMUNICATE WELL WITH THEM. THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED TO DO. YOU NEED TO BE AROUND PEOPLE AND NOT CLOSED UP ALL DAY WITH JUST YOURSELF. TRY GETTING A JOB OUT IN THE PUBLIC IT WILL HELP. GOOD LUCK