I dont know..?

i just turned 15 and for the past 6 or 7 months ive felt really bad.i want to do things that i shouldnt,ive changed a lot,my friends dont care and idk.i dont like to be around a lot of people anymore.i dont like my family or being around them even though i know they love me and that they take good care of me.i dont understand.i want out of my house.i want to runaway.i dont understand at all how i feel,and i cant tell my parents because it will dissapoint them and i cant go through them making me feel guilty like last time when i went to the hospital.and the doctors dont keep anything confidental like they said they would.and i cant trust anyone now.i dont even know.i hate people saying that im "emo" or whatever they call it.it hurts so much and no one realizes it.why cant i be normal?

Wow. That sucks. Being your age is hard...I hated it. It really does get better, I promise. But you can't be miserable right now. Is there any way that you can show your parents this post? The look on their face may look like disappointment in you, but I am sure it is not. It is worry and concern over their daughter and if there is any disappointment, it will be in themselves, not you, because they want more than anything for their daughter to be happy. Are there any teachers you can talk to? Your grandparents? Aunts and uncles? You seem like you are reaching out and need to talk to someone. And as for "Why can't I be normal?" You are. You don't realize it, but so many people feel the way that you do, they just hide it, as you probably do most of the time too. Do you have new friends that understand how you feel? If not, are you interested in any sports or clubs that you could join, because that will help you meet a lot of new people with similar interests. I am sorry that I am sounding like such an adult--I don't mean to, but I am concerned about you. You say that you were hospitalized--was there maybe a nurse or doctor there that you can talk to? Yes, they probably will tell what you are saying, but that is because they want to help you and your parents are the most important people there to help you. Please talk to someone. The feelings that you are having need to be discussed. You are not abnormal or crazy or anything like that, you are just going through a rough time. I hope it gets better soon! It will get better. :)

Yep, you are a teenager alright!

Bi=Polar??

erm, you may have depression... it could also just be hormones or a reaction to a medication you are taking. but, you know, there's scientific evidence that if you smile for 17 (it may have been 24- i really can't recall) seconds, endorphins (chemicals that make you happy) get sent to your brain and that makes you happier. and you know, animals help too (try volunteering at a shelter).

cheer up and best of luckk :)

everyone who thinks they have an unordinary life seeks to have what they think is a "normal" life, but everyone who is "normal" seeks to live an unordinary life that is different from everyone else.
if you just learn to grow past this and just accept life for what it is, just be happy. not happy as in everything is all right and ok, just happy for just doing whatever, anything at all.
s.hit happens, thats life.

I think I went through the same thing when I turned 15. I probly(sp) still have it. I to am called "emo" by my sister becuse I stared wearing black(not extreme) and saying I hate eveything. I thought it was depression. Ask your mom if you can see a therapist. It doesn't matter what your mom or anybody else thinks.You are just trying to help yourself. I went and saw a theapist and I got medication. It helped a lot. You'll out grow it.