Okay, so what do I call this? What is wrong with me?

Not sleeping well, once I stayed up the whole night writing, eating habits are uncontrolled, scared of people in a way...I get nervous when I'm talking to people. I go out of my way to avoid people even though deep down I really do want to talk and have fun with people, but I just can't to nervous and run away and do my own thing. I throw myself into walls and sleep myself when I think I'm getting fat. I feel to die or runaway. I feel lonely, I feel upset, I want to breakdown and get otu of here. What is this? Mood swings? Depressions? Nothing at all? I can't even concentrate in school, today I just got up and left (summer school), I feel like I just can't fit in with anything aswell, I'm so tired of myself and I cry, I cry all the time. What is this?

Sounds like depression as you give examples of low self-esteem, irritability, poor sleeping and eating habits which sound like a change from normal for you. Feeling like dying tips the scales, even if you aren't contemplating suicide as helplessness and hopelessness are features as well.

Criteria for Depression are five of the following during a 2 week period:
1) depressed mood more days than not, can be just irritable in adolescents and children and frequently men show more irritability
2) decreased or increased appetite accompanied by weight gain or loss
3) hypersomnia or insomnia
4) recurrent thoughts of death or dying, suicidal ideation
5) observable psychomotor retardation or agitation
5) anhedonia (loss of interest in previous pleasurable activities)
6) subjective feelings of restlessness or being slowed down
7) Difficulty concentrating and/or making decisions

you sound depressed =you should see a Dr

You need some professional help. It sounds like clinical depression. Please consult a Doctor as soon as possible.

depression.

http://health.yahoo.com/ency/healthwise/... here you can learn more about it. I hope this helps

I thik those are symptoms of syczephrenia

I've had to deal with the same sort of thing in the past. Almost feels like your going crazy in a way. I'd definitely go see a doctor you can trust to help you out. Not just a regular walk in clinic, unless you know that there's good ones there. It could be depression, and there's definitely ways to tackle that. Go get it checked out, tell them about how your feeling, i'm sure they'll be able to help you. :)

I don't know if there is a name for it. It sounds like a loss of motivation and focus.

How you think determines what you feel.

I have an article on Coping with Depression
at http://themeaningisyou.com

email any questions.

unless you have damaged your brain (took a bullet, bacteria ate up a section etc.) you can probably readily indentify problems that have been frustrating you to death. with prolonged frustration you eventually start shutting down and forget the real problem. if you don't go manic and blow away some students like the gentleman at va. tech, then you are apt to be very depressed and unable to perform the functions and duties that we all must do or we begin to fail and fall into a sadness and sense of failure, thus, depression. if it lingers long enough you live a miserable life. who knows what your are hiding from yourself. you must be failing or you must not measure up to expectations or you would be more likely to be celebrating not cringeing up and frozen in fear and numbness. depression. it has you by the throat and you can only struggle to survive day by day and hour to hour. that is the best you can do. at least that is the way you are handling it. try to do it another way. clue: identify your source of frustration. if absolutely necessary, get someone who might be able to help you do that. good luck with climbing up out of the hole you dug.