Depression? or maybe a psychotic disorder?

i'm 15 and for about a year or two now i've just felt really.. apathetic. i went through a few month stage where i was very happy. i don't have any friends outside of the internet. i have a habit of over-eating, i have hallucinations of insects, mostly spiders in my bed and i'm constantly looking at walls and ceilings in fear that there are some insects near me. when i see an insect, regardless how small or even if it's absolutely harmless, i get really nervous and start getting kind of shaky, and i either buckle down after a few minutes and kill it and cry after and just be a wreck for about 5-15 minutes afterwards, or i get my parents to help me get it. so i have some messed up hallucinations. i also am extremely paranoid. i don't have an abusive family or any history of abuse. i don't have any mirrors in my room because i have a fear that they're double sided or that someone has cameras behind them or that someone is watching me.

i also refuse to have any door open in my room because i feel like someone could watch me from the cracks. i get very nervous without any trusted person with me in public. but when i'm at home i like to be by myself generally. i'm a hermit, a home-body. up until middle school (6th grade) i was very social and quite content with my life. nothing has ever happened that would make me this way. i've never been raped, sexually abused, etc etc. i have a lot of problems getting to sleep. i don't like to sleep in the pitch dark, i don't like darkness at all, cuz i don't like being in a place where i can't tell what's going on. i like being alone, but i don't like being lonely. i want a friend and a serious boyfriend but i have a lot of problems trusting and i'm extremely paranoid of who i'm friends with, and i'm very distrusting.
okay, well that's enough. it took me a lot to come on here looking for an answer.

Trust me get help!! this sounds like schizophrenia 2 me. My cousin has it and your symptoms r identical even down 2 the very last detail. Even if it's not that though .Please get help. It's a very progressive disease. .... much love

I will be honest, I think you have Paranoia Schizophrenia. If I were you go and get some medication. Good luck though

One diagnosis could be depression with psychotic features. You should see a doctor, and if he/she thinks you're depressed, you can take anitdepressants and there are also medications out there for psychotic episodes. Be sure to tell your doctor all the symptoms, so he/she can diagnose you properly, and hopefull with the right medications, you can start to feel "normal" again. Good luck

It sounds to me like pschizophrenia. Please speak with your doctor about it. There is nothing that anyone on Yahoo Answers can do for you. And usually it only comes on after a girl or boy has reached puberty so that is why you used to be happy but now find all of these weird hallicinations going on. Good luck and please take this seriously. The sooner you get it taken care of the better and more free your life will become.

like realme 19 said depression u sound alot liek my mother did when iw as kid she was diagnosed schizoaffective wich is what he said i was abused bye my mother becuse of her dease u realy do wnat to talk to some one dont try to make it go away or slef medicate it dosnt work u u could end up hurting people u do care about so go see some one get a handle on this ull feel alot better and btw bugs are scary

Go see your doctor, and get referred to a psychiatrist.