Honest opinion, do you think there are other disorders going on for me 'other' than borderline personality

disorder?
because when i read up and research about borderline personality disorder, i dont notice or see the symptoms im having..
am i being neglected?
i was diagnosed with BPD months ago by a psychiatrist and theyve set up psychotherapy. im 30 now and have suffered like this all my life.

im really worried i have other disorders to and there being ignored or not detected.

my thoughts race everyday, where i cant think straight...i lose train of thought....theres a 100 worries, thoughts, all racing through my brain at once....cant concentrate. cant organize..

my anxietys so bad ive isolated myself and are panicky about going out anywhere....only go out when i have to....im shut in...have low moods...no energy...struggle to clean or brush my teeth.

i panic and are startled at noises and people shouting,i feel hopeless & helpless...like theres no hope.
i have alot of anger, which went suppressed from extensive bullying growing up, i used to have aggressive outbursts

but i control it very well now...but still have alot of anger
that i sometimes find very difficult to control.

im having vivid scary night mares most nights.
im awake through the night and sleeping through
the day.
for along time ive had feelings like my lifes being
controlled and that people are plotting against me
and im being outcasted.

so with all these symptoms, i worry theres other things
going on other than boderline personality disorder.
and there not being detected and im not recieving the right
treatment.
like i said, they offered psychotherapy but the psychiatrist
wont give me meds because he said there addictive.

please, what do i do?

It sounds like you are experiencing severe paranoia and anxiety. I recommend going to see a different psychiatrist. Perhaps you should report the one you are currently seeing. Nobody should withold treatment option just because it's addictive. The psychiatrist's first priority should always be helping the patient to get better, any way they can.

i go thru it daily. i read an article yesterday about joe pantalioni and he just started an organization for those with clinical depression (which is all the things ur describing). look into it, it helped me. and discuss it with your dr. if he isn't working with you get a second opinion.

It's very difficult for the doctors to find the right medication at the right dose for a person, it takes lots of time and trial and error. Some of what you're describing seem to me like they could be side effects from your meds, and may go away. Sometimes they take 6-8 weeks to subside.

It also sounds like they are starting you out at a low dose; you are still having some manic bouts and some depression. Bug the crap out of your doctor, and get some answers. That will reassure you and hopefully alleviate some of your anxiety. Until your meds are working, maybe your doctor can prescribe an anti anxiety med like Clonazepam.

Finally, if you are doing the psychanalysis or other type of therapy expect to get a little worse before you get better because you're stirring up all those thoughts and feelings.

Ok I lied. This is finally: try some simple breathing exercises about 3 times each day. If you can't do them, that's ok. It takes practice. Do them in a recliner or in bed. If there is a lot of noise outside, I put on a cd of rain or ocean sounds, like white noise it just smoothes it over. If you can't do it with your eyes closed then keep them open and focus on a spot somewhere in front of you. Gently put your left hand on your chest and your right on your belly, just below the naval. Breathe in slowly in a way that makes your belly expand. As you exhale, think to yourself, "relax, relax." Breathe like that 10 times each exercise. It's called diaphragmaic breathing. It took me months to do it because my diaphragm was locked up from my anxiety. It felt like I was wearing a tight belt around me. I was lucky enough to have an anti anxiety med and although my therapist frowned on using it to learn this breathing method, I did at first. I called the meds "training wheels" and now I can do it with ease.

yes there are other things, maybe you should focus on you childhood or whenever the trama occurred, think you might know what i mean

take a deep breath and try to meditate , u know u are not the only one that have anger problem sometime we can't control our anger it just happen. i think u are suffering from fearing people and the reality is that u are afraid of getting hurt and not having the support u need and u always misunderstood , u question everything and u probably say to yourself the word WHAT IF about thousand time. doubting yourself and not have positive attitude won't help u. i know is not easy , trust me , u are the only one , try to bulid confidence and there always hope for u and plus u may think no one care , but there always some one who care for u.

I didn't mean that YOU were unemployable or hopeless!

I just said that I share some of your symptoms.. like the racing thoughts, the depression, being a shut-in, no energy, low moods, no concentration, etc..

They make ME feel hopeless and unemployable and depressed.

It doesn't mean that you ARE unemployable or anything like that. Both of us can get jobs.. we just have to work really hard to take control of our minds and lives.

I'm sorry if you misunderstood me. I just meant that it's really difficult for myself to live with those symptoms. I understand how a lot of it feels.

You're not useless though. We've still got our youth and mobility. We haven't lost yet.