My parents don't care about me and I may be depresses, what do I do?

I'm a senior in high school, and for 4 years I've been battling with some eating disorder, whether I was purging or just greatly restricting my calories.I try to be happy on the outside and people generally think I'm good person,but the thing is I have for a while been feeling terrible and my parents don't seem to care, which makes it even worse.Today I all of a sudden felt angry at myself for being fat(even though i'm underweight),and knocked a lamp off of a desk and ran out of my house. I just wandered around the streets for about five hours, and then after I came back, all my mother could say was how angry she was that I broke the lamp, and how much she liked it.I have been underweight and looked terrible for a long time, but all my parents can think to do is scream at me about how ****ed up I am and how I have terrible personality problems and how I will fail at life for have those problems.Sometimes I just want to give up.What can I do?Do I just wait for college to find some help?

hi there,

Don't wait to get help, try to get some as soon as you can. Is there a school counsellor at your school or someone there you can talk to? It sounds like you feel that you can't talk to your parents, so it's important that you get access to another trusted adult to talk to. You must have felt really distressed when you went for that five hour walk, and I can understand that you were upset when your mother seemed more worried about the lamp. It sounds like you may have depression but you would need to see a health professional to get a proper assessment. It is unlikely that you have personality problems but It sounds like your eating habits and your relationship with your parents are getting you down. You don't need to hear negative things about yourself at any time, especially now when you are feeling so upset. Hang in there, you need support right now so I hope there is a school counsellor or teacher you could talk to. This will be the first step, then you should see a psychologist for assessment and treatment if necessary. You may not need medication but counselling would really help. You need a safe place to talk confidentially so that you don't feel judged. Good luck and I hope to hear how you are doing in the future
Dotti :)

Your parents care about you trust me, they just don't understand try to talk to your mom(easier) tell her about your problems and maybe see a phycologist, feel better and don't worry, your friends and family are always there for you!

I think it would be a good idea to talk to your school counselor.

Don't wait for college, get help now. See your doctor and get into a program for eating disorders as soon as you can.

I'm sure your parents do care about you... it sounds like you're all really stressed out right now and that you would all benefit from your checking in to a treatment program.

No wonder you have an eating disorder and have times when you hate yourself with your parents being so abusive. Nothing is ever good enough for people like them, they hate themselves, and they take it out on their kids, then accuse the kids of being f**ked up. Sick.
Once you are 18, I hope you pursue your education, because colleges often have student health centers where you can get treated for your depression. Also, if they have a clinical psychology program, or a counseling major available, they will have a clinic in which students do their clinical practice for their degree. Such a clinic will be a very inexpensive (or free of charge) where you can get counseling.
Good luck. It is possible to overcome rotten parents. If I did it, so can you.

the first thing is. U know that u have a problem, i think your parents do care but as u said yourself "I try to be happy on the outside and people generally think I'm good person" so your parents just think u r being a naughty teenager, what about writing all your feelings down on a letter then leaving it for your mum and dad to read?? u have to put yourself in your parents shoes what would u think of your daughter???

You want love and acceptance from them we all want love and acceptance froom our parents. I never got love from my parents either it was not cos they did nto love me my mum never had much love and dd not know how to love really, and my stepdad beat the crap out of me i was very angry when younger and did not feel they cared and took drugs and eerything, sometimes when where angry we take things out on ourselves hurt oursellves.
They love you really they are just crap at showing love products of their own upbringing and issues.
I know God loves and accepts me and he loves and accepts you parents let us down and are foolish alot i know cos i have been a parent and made loads of mistakes if i could go back i would do.
Deep down your hurting inside and you need to speak to someone the more you bottle it up the worse it will feel. Try to find an understanding counsellor you are too beautiful to go on like this in pain. remember we do not belong to our parents we belong to go he sent his son to die for you no one has done that much for you and you think you are worthless you need to change your thinking, cos you are important and precious. and one day you can help others though their pain.
Love Denise

call the 800 # for Mental Health. Go see a doctor ask for help don't go on like this

Your parents care about you and there are more people outside your family that care about you too. Friends and teachers just to name a couple. Battling a eating disorder can be hard and very rarely do people get better without anyones help. The best way to fix the relationship with your parents is to talk and be honest. Why hold back honesty is the best way. What is the worst that is going to happen nothing if you cant talk to a friends parents, aunt, uncle, grandpa, grandma, nurse, teacher, anyone. Just cause you have those feelings doesnt mean you are ruined in life. I was in Iraq twice and lost some friends to this day I still have a hard time being around family cause like you they dont understand how I feel and why I am the way I am but I know they love me just like yours even if they dont really show it. I talk to a therapist about my life feels good to get it out and I feel like I have got better. So I suggest talking to someone talking is always good who ever that may be.

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