Obsessive Compulsive Disorder? Help?

Before I thought these were just 'quirks'- but I feel like I have to tell anyone I'm getting off the phone with, or anyone who's leaving to go somewhere, to be careful- I feel like if I don't, something bad is bound to happen. Sometimes I avoid throwing away a note or picture related to a certain person because I'm afraid it'll bring disaster to them. I feel like some things (not everything) needs to be a certain way or it'll bring disaster. I'm not superstitious (I tell myself). I even feel like if I do something bad my loved ones will be punished for it, or I'll be punished by having to see them suffer. I I KNOW this is not normal or logical, but it didn't really sound like OCD until I actually read about it. Do these sound like OCD symptoms?? (To go along with my obsessive worry! Sorry about all the mental questions, I'm just having a very, very hard time x_x I do have my first appointment with a therapist on Friday and I'm super nervous!!!).

Control
young persons your age often have feelings of great power, sometimes think that what they don't do or what they do can influence how the world will react.
A friend may die, something bad will happen to mom if you don't call her precisedly at 3:00. As children, and very small children, we all feel like we are the center of the universe. Everything that happens, in our minds at least, happens because of us. If parents fight, we caused it. If a parent dies or goes away, it's our fault. This is pretty normal until we develop another view of the world that includes a portrait with lots of people in it
who also influence what happens. We are no longer in charge. We have passed from childhood to young adulthood. People who do not make this normal transition still consider they are at the center of the universe. They can be recognized by the demands they make that everyone pay them tribute, as it were. The message they give off is: Quiet when I'm talking! I'm more important than anyone here. I can do what I want! I'm different. I make up my own rules as I go along. me! me!
Of course, you can see the dangers here with this mindset, right? Some of these people become leaders and actually do well, but sometimes they are caught in lies and other deceptive practices that indicates they still think they are pretty important. more so than the law, at least.
Others become drug abusers ande people abusers, as I call them. They are the antt-social personality types who cheat on taxes, fake injuries, anything to get ahead and take advantage of others. This behavior often shows up in adolescence. If they are forced to get treatment for problems parents can't deal with, they can disrupt the system wherever they are placed. They can use up the staff, requiring all the resources at the center's
disposal. They are unable to give up control to the center. They trust only themselves. Perhaps they learned early on that no control is out of control.
Of course this isn't true. If I fly to Pittsburgh, I am happy to give over control of my life to the pilot. There are many many ways we do this throughout life. Somehow we survive!

Ask yourself, am I really that important that I can make all these things you described happen?
Am I really that special? Of course you have to anser no!. You are uniquely you and you may be special a few times in your life but none of us are special. I am not the King. You are not a Queen. We are unique. Nothing more. What you are feeling is not good or bad. It happens to lots of people and is a sign you are transitioning, but you hadn't identified it because who would make you aware of it? Any similarity to the "special" attitude of the young women in the news lately? At some point society must rein them in to save face or avoid criticism from less special segments in society.

About the therapist: Not any different than you and me. Not any better. Not any worse. You are feeling an excessive need to control how that interview goes. Don't try to control it. Just relax and say, I'm not in control. That's what the therapist is for. It isn't your responsibilty how the therapist feels. You won't upset the therapist, even if you were to relax and make her do all the work. In fact the therapist gets paid for it. Let them earn their money. Has you life so far had elements of being out of control? Go to the therapist. By then, hopefully, you will be feeling like it's no worse than seeing a doctor for a cold.
Take my suggestions, please. :)
prayers for ya

Meet a doctor immediately

that's good that you are meeting with a dr this fri... there's no hurry i'm suggesting but it does sound like OCD to me however more information is needed. OCD is not a severe diagnosis in most cases so hope you dont worry.