Body Dysmorphic Disorder?

I think I have body dysmorhpic disorder, and I think I also might have avoidant personality disorder. And no I'm not a hypochondriac. I know every flaw and detail to my face. My eyes are too small, they have a good shape but they're too small to look good, they aren't an attractive color, I have bags under my eye 24/7 always and they won't go away even get enough sleep when I, my eyebrows are over plucked and won't grow back and they make my face look somewhat menecaing, my nose has a deviated septum and when people look at me from the left side I have this horrible bump and then the tip of my goes up a little, and I have an overbite and when I smile my top teeth are the only ones that are visable, and I have a couple moles including one like an inch away from my mouth like monroe, and I have the most disgusting dimple chin, I can't wait until I'm 18 so I can get financing for plastic surgery. And like some of the symptoms I read about I also very unmotivated.

I always get this why bother feeling. And I spend literally hours everyday in front of the mirror assessing my flaws and trying convince myself it's not that bad. At my work, or school, or in public, I find myself examining others to see if they have the same flaws, I think I've become quite good at it but I'm afraid they're going to think I'm weird for staring at them. I also feel inferior to others, and I avoid making eye contact with attractive guys or guys in general because I don't want them to be disgusted by me looking at them. I don't really know if everyone does this or is there something wrong?

I think you need to see a psych and have them evaluate you. You shouldn't be feeling this bad about yourself, but lots of people do and they need help in changing the way they look at themselves and the way they think. It takes training and time.

I suggest you see someone to help you do this. It can sometimes be overwhelming to do on your own.

If you don't get help now this can lead to other problems down the line like eating disorders, cutting, mental problems that throw you over the edge.

Please go and get some help.

I hope you can soon start seeing the good parts of you and not the bad. Believe me even stars have their weak spots. NO ONE IS PERFECT. Everyone has flaws. Whether it be physically or mentally. And believe me we are all gonna look the same when we get older.

The thing with all you see in the media is those people have milions of dollars to blow on looking that way, but with out all that makeup and camera tricks and such you would think they were just some ordinary person on the street.

Do you know i feel exactly the same as this some days, and have myself wondered if i had BDD. The only way to try and help yourself feel better is to start thinking postively, even though i know its hard, because its really hard to not think negative things about yourself. But everyone is beautiful in their own way, and you have come to terms with that even though you may not be what your definition of beautiful is, but you could be someone elses.

Let me show you something. Go to this link and when its done uploading roll your mouse over the picture.
http://homepage.mac.com/gapodaca/digital...
Do you see how different the model looks when airbrushed versus when not airbrushed?

The American media really puts so much emphasis on looking perfect and fitting a very specific narrow minded view of beauty. In reality, no one is perfect -- not even the models you see in magazines or celebrities. As a former cosmetic surgical technician, surgeons aren't in the business of making people look perfect. With your eye for detail, you'll find something wrong with even with what procedures they do for you and you'll be on this impossible quest to be perfect when perfection does not exist.

The first step in changing your view of yourself and how the world interacts with you begins from within. If you never deal with the issues you have on the inside, it won't matter what you do to yourself it will never be enough. Make an appointment to see a psychologist. Deep down you know you shouldn't feel this way about yourself. At the very least take a look at this book:
Self-Esteem by Matthew McKay and Patrick Fanning
http://www.amazon.com/Self-Esteem-Techni...

You'll learn how to manage your thoughts differently and possibly find the cause of your obsession with physical perfection.