Mental health?

i am 53 i have worked for 20 plus years.i had a nervous breakdown 2 years ago due to job and 2 family members dying one dec.24 2002 my sweet nephew in jan 24 2003.my problem is i don't know what to do with myself.i was in therapy from jan.2006 till aug 2006 what a waste.i put in alot of time and effort and got a job that i could'nt stand.now i am looking for another job i left the last one because if i stayed i would have become a basket case.i did not realize at the time the job was wrong for me.it was with children and some had questionable injuries.i like to work i am not lazy but now i can't find a job and i am looking at low stress jobs like retail and such.thinking i need a job that is not depressing i feel like a loser and i am very depressed.can anyone help?

I'm sorry for your losses.
You may be right to look at low-stress jobs for now. There are times to work the 'front lines' and times to lay low and re-group.
One of the biggest helpers in my life is having close friends that I talk to daily in-person or at least on the phone.
You seem to be going through one of those "Dark nights of the soul".
Nothing happens by accident in my opinion. You could come out of this and be much stronger and be able to give good advice to folks who are experiencing the death of a loved one or loss of a job.
I'm sorry therapy didn't work out.
It could be that they didn't have what you needed.
It help s to have a diet & fitness plan.
Here are some good ideas:
1. Do something that gets your heart rate up a bit like, walking, running, biking, and swimming.
2. Eat Whole, Organic foods like: Broccoli, Cabbage, Organic Brown Rice, Beans, Spinach, Sweet Potato, Apples, and other fruits and vegetables in their Natural State.
3. Avoid eating corn, white bread, white rice, candy, sodas, chips, and anything else that you already know you shouldn鈥檛 be eating.
4. Drink clean water as your beverage of choice. Avoid Fruit drinks and fruit juices (unless YOU juice them yourself)
5. Stop smoking, drinking beer & wine, and drinking coffee.
6. Get 8 hours of sleep each night.
7. Hang out with people who want to be healthy.
8. Avoid anything with High Fructose Corn Syrup.

Tone up the muscles:

1. Join a gym and get a trainer.
2. If you鈥檙e short on cash, start a light stretching & yoga regimen.
3. Do push-ups, and light dumbbell curls for the upper body.
4. As I said above, walk, run, swim, and or bike
5. Take an aerobics class, a yoga class, or some other fitness class.
6. Join the local YMCA..

Mental Health:

1. Get a friend to talk to each day about your feelings.
2. If you have some money or insurance, get a counselor to talk to.
3. Learn how to meditate.
4. Join a support group for the issue you鈥檙e dealing with.
5. Ask your Higher Self (or God) for guidance.
6. Start keeping a diary or journal about your feelings & thoughts.
7. Write a 鈥榞ratitude鈥?list every night.
8. Do something that makes you happy each day like: listen to your favorite music, draw, paint, write, or anything creative.
9. Do something for someone else who needs help.

Hang in there. Do the next right thing.
Take care of yourself.