I may reside somewhere, but I don't really live anywhere. I am not really living, at best I am only existing?

I haven't been living for years. It is a living death. If it weren't for the act, which I put on display for public consumption, everyone would know I am soulless. I am empty. I am the night.

Sweetie you are a goth girls dream, but if you really feel that way you should get to a doctor asap. You could have a chemical imbalance or it might be depression of a different kind. Honestly life is a wonderful gift that should be enjoyable. Seek some help.

Best of luck

You are depressed. Seriously, go see your doctor!

Man there is so much out there for you. You sound so depressed. PLEASE go see a doctor. Pray, find a church, get involved. You are a person, you shouldn't feel this way. I promise, there is sooooo much out there for you. You need to live, laugh, love. Get help.

This sounds like a good journal entry. It could actually be a good poem. So, see there.. you are creative in your writing. That is good. If you feel that way, you should keep a journal about it. What causes you to feel this way? Think about that. You may need to see a doctor and/or counselor about your feelings.

You are depressed. Go see a doctor. Your will get back on your feet and find some pleasure in life. The longer you wait, the worst the situation will be. Don't waste more time, call and make an appointment. You are worth it.

I feel the same. But I also have substance abuse problems.I don't know if that applys to you. But even before I started drinking, I felt the same. Allow me to quickly throw a "label" in here.Dysphoric disorder. Basically a Low grade depression that exists for 2 or more years. YOur question is sort of vague though. Soulless? Are you desensitizing your self due to bad life experiences? I do. I sometimes feel that if someone were to get shot right in front of me,and lets say some blood got on my face, I would wipe it off, and keep on going.I Lost alot in my life and i'm only 24 years old. So yeah, I'm pretty bitter. You may or may not relate to this. However, you'll make someway or another.

yes.

1. Every night, half an hour before retiring, go to your room, where you can be entirely alone & as remote as possible from noise and distraction. 2. Seat yourself in a wide & comfortable chair, or, better still, lie down on your back at full length. See that your clothing is loosened, so that you will suffer no distressing annoyance on this account. Compose yourself as if for sleep, assuming a position of restfulness, abandon & utter relaxation. Close your eyes, letting the lids rest lightly on your cheeks. 3. Shut your mind resolutely against every form of bodily sensation. Forget for the time that you are encumbered with a body. 4. Bar out of your consciousness every memory, every thought of the past. 5. Build a mental picture of the thing you want to have, to do or to be 鈥?the one thing that you immediately desire first & most of all. By this we mean nothing indefinite. We do not refer to ultimate aims that can come only as the result of long periods of effort. We mean something specific, something that can be yours tomorrow, something that in itself constitutes the next step in your chosen career. 6. See yourself finding the ways and means of realizing your desire, overcoming obstacles one after another, all the obstacles that can possibly arise. See yourself called upon to display, & displaying, alertness, promptness, courage, confidence, resourcefulness, patience, push, enterprise, expert knowledge, insight, shrewdness, tact, self-control, decision. See yourself face to face with the situation that confronts you in real life and manifesting the qualities & doing the things necessary to your purpose. Put yourself body & soul into this picture. Multiply details. Rivet your mind upon it. 7. Advance step by step, logically, wisely, consistently, to the climax of the drama. See yourself winning out. See yourself solving the problem, getting the thing you want, acting the part you desire to play. Detach your spirit from the flesh of this world & incorporate it in the mental image of yourself. Live the victory mentally until a sense of its reality permeates your soul. 8. Make your dream picture as delightful as possible. Dwell upon it with joyful satisfaction. Warm your heart with a feeling of thankfulness that that which you have so long desired is really yours. This feeling of gratitude, this emotional element, will bring forth associations that will give life to the picture & will animate your faith. Keep yourself tight shut in this dream world for at least fifteen minutes. 9. Arise and make your preparations for the night. Then upon retiring once more close your eyes & let your mind dwell upon your vision for five or ten minutes or until you fall asleep. Let it be the last thing in your thoughts as you become unconscious. 10. Every time you are awake during the night call the mental picture before you & keep it in consciousness as long as you remain awake. 11. In the morning, immediately upon awaking, repeat the procedure set out in the third, fourth and fifth instructions. 12. The more of your spare time you spend in this way, the more promptly will you actualize your ideals. By repeated concentration, every detail of the image of your desire will be so deeply engraved upon your mind as to exert an influence throughout the day. It will inhibit wasteful emotions and impulses. It will give you poise and self-possession. It will so inspire you with its promise as to awaken an energizing response in the profoundest depths of your subconsciousness.

I'm wishing you well and sending love your way. Hope this helps, Warm Regards, and thank you for your question

I like what Bernard...wrote although a bit long is good advice.

I think that you are depressed and may need to find your niche' in life. Try art or ceramics. You may find something that you are good at and help to cheer you up. See a mental health practitioner or DR to help you with and through your depression.

Church helps and prayer also. Good luck and God bless.

Yup every day living the lie of being happy you laugh at your own jokes or laugh at stupid jokes that dont even make sence to you just so people see you laugh but while you laugh on the out side you can't stop sobbing on the inside. I'm with you on this one. my daughter died last year, CPS took my son, and my BF is starting the training to take his second tour over seas. But I'm gona coppy what the other guy said

Its hard to continue to live in the Void. I am aware of this feeling. Talk to a doctor and see if the talking helps you descover the sourse of your pain. It is easy to stay in the void.
The hard part is living life on a daily bases. Its hard to find your way but it can be done if you want to do it. Take your time and think about what you want to do. Life is what you make it to be. Please talk to someone.