My Life! HELP ANYONE!!?

Hi, well this mite kinda be a bit freaky for some people but I'll have a go anyway. Well in life, I get obsessed with older females, whether I love them as a mother figure or if I fancy them. I am a 21 year old female who is a Lesbian and I have no issues with my sexuality. The problem is I always obsess about the wrong people. I was volunteering in my local primary school from January-June 2007 and while I was there, I became obsessed with the teacher I worked with. I knew her car registration number off by heart, I want to make love her to her everynight. I had to leave the school as Mental Health Team told the teacher that I liked her and I was sent a letter saying I can't go back. I want to walk down an alley-way down near the school to find this teacher and prentend I am just walking publicly. I once bumped into her down the shops and I turned away but then I think now I should have just have ran up to her, grabbed her and said that I'm sorry for falling in love with the most

wonderful gorgeous woman in the area and touch her face and hold her when I tell her. I have also found her on friends reunited too. This has happened with various females from my head of year in school, college tutor, youth worker, manager at my other work place and celebrites. I have also have an Eating Disorder, Self-Harm, taken an overdose, have OCD and Bipolar Disoder too.

have also seen a Psychologist and had therapy for 2 years and it ended last Christmas. I wanted to go back to see her to discuss all this but I'm not allowed to go back to see her. I am no way obsessed with her. It's just I trust her 100% with everything I tell her. She also knows about these issues above. I really really want to talk to her. I have written a letter to her and she replied once but after that she's not allowed any contact as of boundaries. I can't even have a phone call to her.

Have written a letter to the Occupational Therapist at the support group I go to a the Mental Health Team with

ask your gp to refer you for dbt, see link: http://www.priory.com/dbt.htm

you need help , leave her alone

... this aint the place for an answer to a problem like that.

honestly, you need help. you need someone that will take an interest in you and help you sort out your feelings. a person can't be objective / professional and help you when they are involved with you. there are many good lovers in the world / what you need right now is a good psychologist. let your psychologist be / fullfill the role of a psychologist and let your lover fullfil that role. prayer would help you a lot too. utilize all the resources possible to feel better / work through your porblems. you deserve to enjoy your life and be free of the suffering. happy holidays to you.

You probably dont want to hear this, but....you need to get over it and move on.
You have made ur feelings clear and shes obiously not intrested otherwise she would have let u know.
Plenty of people about, try not to get too focused on one person.
good luck :)

Good on you for recognising you need more help. You did the right thing walking away from the teacher, you may well have ended up with more problems. That also shows the help you have already had has helped...you were strong enough to turn away. Don't make an issue out of your therapist not getting back to you, you know she has guide lines to follow and she may well not be allowed to return your calls, letters etc. Is it possible to find another therapist? I know the trust takes a long time to build up, but you might gain from seeing someone fresh. You have obviously come a long way already, you recognise your traits, the patterns how you work, that is progress. Don't give up now.

I know this sounds a bit extreme but you might want to think about committing yourself to a mental health institution. Because from the sound of things your obsessive behavior is only going to continue and one day may completely consume you causing you to possibly hurt somebody. I'm not trying to be mean I'm genuinely concerned. Please get the help you need - Good Luck.

you need some proffesional advice, in short though you sound far too intense and no matter what your sexuality potential partners are gonna be freaked out before they even know you. slow down if you are attracted to someone try going out after work for a drink as a group and get to know people first otherwise they are gonna brand you as a stalker or similar without giving you a chance. good luck.

Well first of all you should at least commend yourself for acknowledging your problems that's always the first step in the solution. Remember you're not the only one who has the disorders that you posses. Obviously you need help, I understand you having strong feelings towards your previous psychologist but you must get strict with yourself and try and find a different source of help, may I suggest you seek the help of a male this time. I can personally relate to feelings of obsession. When I was younger even into my early twenties I sometimes had an obsession about different girls that I envied to have. I got so worked up in my mind the desire to have a lustful physical relationship with them that I totally forgot what it was like to just like a person for who they were. Time and enlightenment has done wonders to balance out my thinking, so don't ever think that you won't overcome this disorder. If you want to be able to overcome this you have to first be committed and determined to start making changes and this involves breaking free of any previous obsession. If you can't be committed and or determined then you're only fooling yourself if you think relief is in your future. I would earnestly seek out alternate help elsewhere, and kind of feel your way around you know give a couple or three different male psychologists a try and see which one you really feels can relate to you better. An obsessive personality can also be used to your advantage and enable you to reap much success and satisfaction. I'm not sure what your other interests or hobbies are in life but if you can train your mind by repetition at focusing on other things you can possibly be a great success at whatever you do. It's kind of difficult for me to explain in words but unfortunately much advice in which we are given in life just doesn't make much sense until we're a little older and can see things in a different perspective. It's sort of like redirecting a vast amount of energy or effort to an alternate source. No doubt you're obssesed in getting to know each and every little detail of these desired people to the point where you can see every detail about them just by picturing them in your mind, memorizing plate numbers etc.... Just imagine what good can come of using that same determination in other things in life. I hope this makes enough sense that you find some help in it.

The psychologist you refer to may well continue to refuse to see you if your no longer a patient of hers.
If you were to try and see her out of work it could be seen as obsessive behaviour.
Unfair if you haven鈥檛 a crush on her, but there it is.

And a lot of things just close down over Xmas and New Year, so your support group and workers probably won鈥檛 be back until January now.

In the meantime if you need to talk to people with some experience of these issues.

Saneline
0845 767 8000
http://www.sane.org.uk/SANEline

Saneline is 24/7 - if enough trained volunteers are available.
Keep trying 鈥?lines are often busy

MIND has a information line:
Tel. no and hours on website below. Its not 24/7.
http://www.mind.org.uk/About+Mind/Mindin...

If you just want someone to talk to:
Samaritans
08457 90 90 90
email support: jo@samaritans.org

Good luck.

I think you have placed her as a decoy from how you really feel and whats going on in your life. Something to focus on. Your main concern should be getting well and feeling good in yourself and I'm sure then you will meet a wonderful women that loves and appreciates you. Maybe you should go to the GP AND GET SOME SUPPORT. Sort yourself out fist and I 'm sure things will adjust. All the best.

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