I just don't know what to do.....?

This is kind of a vent but also hopeing someone "kind" will have a wise word. So i'd appreciate sincerity here please.
I had surgery to remove my gallbladder on the 2nd. of this month. Dec. 20th i had 3 ultrasounds, 1 cat scan and 3 sets of blood tests including a unrine test and was told pregnancy was a definite no. I was in so much pain and discomfort for 6 weeks my husband and i didn't do a thing. I had my surgery, it took me 10 days to recover, we made love with protection but it didn't last long as i pulled my suture.
I started feeling nauseous, missed my period so I take 2 tests today inc. one digital and both are positive. This will be our 4th pregnancy in 4 1/2 years. We have 3 girls, 3,2,8 months.
My spleen is still enlarged and i have a liver disease, both will need work and possilby surgery and i'm having severe adominal issues and i couldn't feel any more scared right than i do.

My delivery in May almost cost me my life with severe internal bleeding and was warned another baby would propose major consequences.
This is my baby, my blood, my life and now i am so torn on what to do.
I am a good, honest Christian and am so against abortion but my doctor is urging the thought of health risks and i can not bare this.
I don't know exactly what i'm asking here, i have no outlet. My husband is coping well but is fearful of our health and doesn't want to proceed but has been very understanding and calm about this.
I don't know what to do.....please forgive me of my rant, i just, i don't know want to think or do.......

My goodness. I feel for you. I dont know if i would ever be able to abort my child, even for medical reasons. Talk to your doctor about precautions you can take, like bed rest and whatever else that can help keep you safe.

I Pray God's protection over you and your health and that of your family.

God has planned this from before you were even concieved. He may just take this baby. you never know. He also may make this your easiest pregnancy ever. All children are a blessing. But I can also understand your fear. Pray and put this in His hands. He'll take care of it.

I feel for your situation but you really need to think about this. You are risking your life and the babies. If you were to pass on you would leave your husband with 3 little one on his own.

I suggest you get 2nd opinions or even 3rds to make sure about your situation. Ask for a referal to a high risk pregnancy specialist. This is something you and your husband need to sit down and discuss in the end it is up to you.

Good luck and if you believe in faith He should guide you.

I just don't know what I would do either,you need to get other opinions, trust in God I know that it's hard. I have twins, and I want more kids, but am unable to. Even though your not for abortion which I understand, but if having the baby is a risk to your health your life, it may be the only option , because your 3 daughters are so young and they need you to be around for them. Just pray, hope, and wait everything will be okay. God has a plan for everything , even if we don't understand why at the time.

you need a higher power right now

good luck

but, I do have a question....if the doctor told you that your life would be in danger if you were to have another child, why did you not get your tubes tied? rather than risk your life again?

I would seek another opinion, however (just my two cents here)now is the time to seek wise and godly counsel through the elders of your church. Go and seek their counsel, they will give comfort and wise advice, this is what i believe the bible tells us to do in stressful situations. God Bless you and your family thru this.