Mental illness- obsession with "infinity"?

Is there a mental illness were one may have episodes of fear and anxiety pertaining to the concept of "infinity"? I am 16 and I have had maybe.. 4-8 episodes in my life where I have torturous dreams were my mind races trying to grasp the concept of infinity and it is soo scary!!
One time I had just got pretty drunk, but its happened before- when I was younger.
Could this possibly be a sign or symptom of a mental illness of any sort? I have had a troubling childhood to date with the death of my father a few years ago, my mother's alcoholism (and my nursng of her during such times), being removed from my home and living in many different places- family and foster care, missing my dad despite his own, more mild alcoholism, and the constant putdowns of my mom's relapsing, and my refraining from making friends out of fear of leaving them soon. (idk if ne of that matters)
Anywho, whats the dealio wif me? Is it just craszy dreams or wat?

I don't think that your thoughts about infinity have anything to do with your family life issues. You're not mentally ill.

Infinity is a concept that most people can't grasp. You are an intelligent person, so you try to understand it; less smart people probably don't worry about it.

I also just can't get the infinity idea to work in my head. I just put that idea in the "box of ideas" that I won't ever understand. We can't know everything.

It is not an illness because it is not interfering with every day life.
If it is hindering your normal activities because you cannot forget about infinity, I would say Obsessive Compulsie Disorder.
But remember... it is only a disorder if you can't funtion normally because of infinity.

With the history you've had with your parents, i think that speaking to a counsellor could be a really good thing for you to do.

I'm afraid i don't know enough to answer your question as to weather the thoughts you are having are related to mental illness.

But i would definately go see your doctor or maybe a school or work counsellor??

At sixteen you sound like you are ready to meet the world. There is nothing preventing you from meeting new friends. The sadness of losing your parents will be easier to manage as you find one new friend to share life with. Just to chat with them everyday will be good for you. Reach out and don't get drunk anymore.

I've had worries about infinity too..its a really scary concept and if i really dwell on it i begin to feel sick and my head feels fuzzy like its just too full, but i wanted to assure u that you're ok, this maybe a mild anxiety/Obsessive complulsive disorder thing.. but try to let the feelings pass over and to think too much. i know its easier said than done but all these feelings will pass..i hope u feel better soon

I had this problem when I was a teenager until I found the answers in the Bible. I found out this if a secondary problem. I had to get the first problems answered first. When I accepted Jesus as my Savior I could look at that problem in the right perspective. If you have a Bible read the gospel of John and the book of Romans. On radio or TV you might listen to Charles Stanley, or J. Vernon McGee, or D. James Kennedy,or Billy Graham. Look at things they agree on. Nobody is perfect in everything.