I am so sad. Should I END IT ALL??!?

I am so sad. It has been a hard year. I have been beat up, thrown out of the closet, blackmailed, my room thrased, and such, and all by my own family! I have cut myself. My brother is mean to his wife and pulls her around by her hair, and people call me a dirty whore.
And on top of all this, I just HAD to get drunk with boys.
I really like this guy (his life at home sux too) and we got drunk together.... that was the farest I have ever gotten with a guy (sexually...we did some stuff that i was uneasy about). I havent seen him since then (it happened a few days ago) and i felt sad for awhile but then I realized that I really liked him. His brother said that he was put into foster care and now lives in oakhurst. its true. i talked to his crying mother and he isnt inrolled in school anymore. i miss him so much. now i realized that i love him. what do i do?

if you really love him you should try our hardest to contact him any way you can....and the family problems we all have maybe not to the same extent as yours but i can say i have so what i did was find a really good Friend and confine in them, that person can help you through it....just try to stay calm, and stop cutting yourself it isn't your fault that you have these problems. you shouldn't take this out on yourself. hope you feel better, and you get threw this safely!

I would not end everything but go see a doctor

Be realistic. Ending it all won't accomplish anything. In fact, if you are a Christian, you'll end up going to Hell. So go see a counselor or realize that we've all had these bumps in our road to maturation. Take care of yourself.

what are you, 16, 17 or younger. you need to face it, hun. It only goes down hill from here.

No, life is full of rainbows, sunshine and unicorns

DO NOT END YOUR LIFE. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I KNOW that there are people out there that love you.

Believe me, things will get better. I am very familiar with that feeling, urge to just end it, but somehow managed not to all those times when I did want to. Since then, I have had sad times but also wonderful times, I have had two wonderful kids, I've found love and lost it, and now found it again. Life is ups and downs, darlin' and the downs are important, too. It't the way we grow, the way we learn life lessons. Blah blah blah, I know. It all seems so pointless, but this will pass, and you will have wonderful days again. Take it slow with love, try to write him, maybe? He's got a lot on his plate, too, and maybe more than anything he needs a kind friend who understands what he is going through. Take care, and please tell someone what you are feeling about the suicidal tendencies. A school councelor helped me once when I told her I wanted to end it. Good luck to you.

I am sorry you have to go through life like this but you know what you dont have to stay at home and live with the people you are with. You can go to places where they can help you move out and you can go to the police and have who ever is doing this to you reported and have them charged. You have rights and at the moment your rights are being vialated and you can go and have something done about it. I hope this helps. Good luck!!!

Nah, suicide is lame and a waste. No Hell, but no Heaven either. Just nothing. Bleak? A little - but the good news is that you have 70 more years to see what there is out there, including more of that glowy, warm, golden, I-know-it's cheesy-but-don't-give-a-**** feeling called 'love.' Things can get much better in college/moving out, or at least they can when you make the right things happen.

Sounds like you need to think about what you want for yourself first. This can take time. For now, focus on increasing your options after school and not doing things that decrease 'em (getting pregnant, taking hard drugs, etc.).

In general, try to surround yourself with people that have your best interests in mind and are there for you. If you can get in contact with that guy, that's great, but don't stake everything on one person. Listen to Dandelion up there^ Just get his e-mail and see where it goes...

You should talk to a professional as well. Confiding in a friend is good but a only a pro has the training to really help you put things in perspective and take the steps you need to.

Take care.