Could i have a disease?

im 17 years old. i have had a really bad up bringing, my mum is an alcoholic and i was put into heaps of foster homes. i use to be so out there and not care about what anyone thought of me but now its as if i dont want to be seen by anyone.i hate it when people tell me to get come out of my shell beacuse i cant.im always feel lm not worthy of anything and that everyone hates me. i recently left school because i could last all day with out talking to anyone at all. im having halousinations and no im not on drugs. i have no motivation what so ever, i have no job and no licence because i have been putting it off for way too long. is there anything wrong with me?

Some of what you're experiencing everyone experiences. However, your background may indicate you have worse than others. What can help with feeling of helplessness and unworthiness is to actually commit yourself to things and to fight the urge to give up and go into a shell. Define yourself a goal and being to build up your self-confidence. Knowing that your laying around, sleeping, not doing anything, and becoming too self-conscious of your short comings is not going to help you is your best tool. Knowing that as soon as you start doing things and improving your capabilities is also your best tool. I used to be an average athlete who was always envious of people who could run much longer and much faster than me. I used to think they were blessed with something that I wasn't. I set a goal myself to be as good as any of those athletes I was in competition with. I committed myself to it. I worked hard, very hard, and fought off the urge to give up because things were painful or took effort or I wasn't improving fast enought. I just kept at it. My times began to improve VERY slowly. My distance running got longer and longer but VERY VERY slowly. There were times I thought I would never improve. I had setbacks. I had heart breaks. But little by little things changed. Success came in small bite sizes but man did it feel GOOD. I built on those and I got far better than I ever thought my body was capable. I'm now as good as or better than most, if not all, of the ones who used to humiliate me. Believe me, it is possible to overcome shortcomings. You'll have to convince yourself you can do it and you'll have to convince yourself to pay the price of the hard work. It is VERY hard, but the rewards are so important, you can't afford not to pay that price. No amount of medication is going to do that for you.

you seem to be going Thu some kind of depression,,,you need to talk to someone,,,a Doctor or a Mental health worker. This is a sickness, nothing to be afraid of or ashamed of but get help,,you can;t do it by yourself...God bless.....

You're change in habits and the fact that you feel worthless and hated could definately be signs of some sort of depression. I'm not sure what exactly your hallucinations are so I can't really comment on them. You should see a doctor or therapist and they can get you help if you are feeling depressed.

It's a good thing you're aware of what you've been through and how you think it's affecting you. Hallucinations are a big problem, you need to seek professional help to see what really is causing it. Take everyday one step at a time. You're young and there's a lot to understand about yourself and this world. If talking online makes you feel better, then continue doing it.

Good luck.

You do not have a disease as in body sickness; you may have a mental health disorder. Your description above, combined with your other question about hallucinations, indicates to me that there is something deeply bothering you and that you need help. Others may pull diagnosises out of a hate. I have a theory, but I really think you need to see someone. Start with a doctor if you have one; call a mental health clinic and explain to the person the issues you have outlined in your two questions.

Good luck.