I Have an eating disorder. Help me. I am trying to help myself, but i'm having a problem. :'(?

I've had an eating disorder called ednos(eating disorder not otherwise specified). ok, so i've had it for 3 years now. i've maintained 90-95 lbs. for 2 years. I'm 5 feet tall. lately, i've been trying to overcome this, and i've tried many times and fauled. but this time, i seem to be making some good progress. but, i've gained 6 lbs in 3 days. and for me, that isn't cool. I have abused laxatives and i'm thinking maybe thats the problem, because now i have very bad constipation. I also used to starve myself and even made myself purge alot. i'm 100 lbs now, but i'm eating healthy. my ideal weigh for my age and height is 95 lbs. so i was never really underweight, but i still had an eating disorder. The problem is, i'm eating healthy now, and i'm still gaining weight. and i'm afraid that if i reach 105, i'm gonna freak and i'm might start doing all the things i was doing before and feel guilty again and hate myself. i'm scared. i don't want to be 105 again, i looked so fat.
I really want to know a way in which I can self recover, but still be 95 lbs. C鈥檓on. if other people without an eating disorder and eating healthy can do it. Why can鈥檛 I? By the way, keep exercise out, I have school for 10 hours. 7:30-4:00. And I do workout for an hour after dinner and 15 minutes before. And no, it鈥檚 not muscle weight, muscle doesn鈥檛 jiggle or is 27 inches in diameter around my waist. I just want to be my ideal weight. And if I ask my doctor (who is fat), he will just say. Eat. And I am eating. Normal eating, even my friends noticed I鈥檓 eating normal again, well, I used to binge a lot and spit out my food on a napkin. Now I don鈥檛. I don鈥檛 eat sweets, I don鈥檛 eat junk food, I don鈥檛 eat fast food鈥?.yet I鈥檓 still gaining. And it鈥檚 coming pretty fast. 3 days ago I was 95 lbs. So what鈥檚 up with that? Yes I鈥檓 getting the right amount of calories. No I鈥檓 not starving. Yes I鈥檓 doing cardios. Yes I鈥檓 jogging. Yes I鈥檓 exercising in general. Yes I eat every 4 hours (breakfast, lunch and dinner) I don鈥榯 over eat. Yes I eat fruits and veggies. I drink my fat free milk. I eat LEAN meats. I eat whole grains and wheats in high fiber. I drink 8 glasses of water. Yet, I鈥檓 still gaining. And please don鈥檛 tell me to not worry about it. Because for someone like me, I do worry about and it is a big deal. And 6 lbs in 3 days? Yeah water weight was what I lost, I know. But how can I still maintain my ideal weight without having to starve myself and still eat healthy. And I am eating healthy too. And yes I鈥檓 drinking prune juice for my constipation. So please someone help me.

ok, i have EDNOS(eating disorder not otherwise specified). And i can't eat every 2-3 hours. In school, i have to eat breakfast at 7:00 and eat lunch at 1:20 pm. then i have dinner at 4:30pm. so yeah.

Hun...it is likely the constipation and yes the laxative abuse probably had a lot to do with it. I have an eating disorder and deal with all these weight gain issues as well. My suggestion is to try not to weigh yourself for a week. Drink lots of water and eat high fiber foods. Ou bodies are really messed up and we need to give them time to readjust. Try (I said try) not to freak out until you get the constipation taken care of.

Thanks. The constipation is gone :) Report It

anorexia isn't something you can really just fix. in all honesty you need to look at the why and perhaps see a nutritionist.
the reason you're gaining is because your metabolism is most likely messed up.
eating every four hours won't fix it.
you need to eat every 2-3 hours.
and balanced. carbs, proteins, veggies.
and you also need to realise that what you see in the mirror isn't always what is the truth.

Okay, I am over weight, But you can't always go by them data sheets saying how much you should weigh because everybodies, body structure is diffrent. It is good that you are eatting healthy. And you doing you exercise. That is good for your heart. But let me ask you this. And i am not coming off hard at you. What if you started starving yourself, which your body will just store fat if you do that. But say you kept doing it, and it killed you? Or what if you ever had a child? Would you starve the child you are carring? And not only if you starve yourself do you know your body will start eatting it's self? Come on girl. I understand that this is a disorder, i would do anything to get to 105 with good health. But that goes back to everyone having diffrent bone structures. I wouldn't worry about getting to 105, You might get there and stay there. Your body is going to go to where it is comfortable. No matter what you do. If you starve yourself all your going to do is kill yourself. To help you over come this. Pray , and read the word. Ask god to heal your mind. Because the devil is lying to you, Telling your to big. The devil, destroys and that is what he is doing to you because your allowing it. The devil , steals, kills and destroys. Say a prayer. and ask god to help you in your time of need. If you want to talk to me any furthur i have no problem with that. My yahoo id is on my profile, u will be in my prayers

Stop eating the whole grains and wheat products, or no more than two serving per day. Don't eat corn, peas, or carrots often, Corn and peas are very high in starches and carrots have lots of natural sugar in them. Limit your fruits to three a day. Only one apple or banana a day. Stick to the fat free milk. Three servings a day. Stick to lean meats. You could actually eat more protein which will help you not be hungry ...
You can have all the veggies you want.

Instead of cardio exercise try strength training. More muscle burns fat.

For the constipation try using Benefiber instead of laxatives. I bet your body was dependent on them and now that you have stopped them it doesn't know how to start working again.

After you are back to 95 pounds then try adding a few more things occasionally to maintain your weight.

However 105 pounds is NOT overweight for a 5 ft person. What is important is your BMI. 95 lbs at your height is on the VERY low end of your healthy BMI range. So plese do not go below that number