I feel angry that I have very severe depersonalization and depression due to child abuse & others can just...?

...just move on and enjoy their lifes, while i have to deal with this. Basically, through child abuse, a couple of strangers screwed up my whole life. Meds and psychologists dont help n i dont wanna live anymore. I use to have a wonderful life but now i envy people who never had to go through this and can enjoy achieving their goals, love life etc.

Any advice? Can anyone relate?

although i wasn't abused as a child, i had a terrible experience when i was a teenager, i was date raped. i understand what you're going through and i know it hurts alot but you need to find the strength to move on with your life. anger and hate won't take you anywhere, it'll just make you bitter and it won't give you peace. i know what i'm talking about cuz i too dwelled on with my past for the longest time and i almost ruined my life.
don't worry though, better days is just around the corner, you just have to hold on and work on to getting well again my friend.
i'll pray for your recovery!
God speed

p.s.
try to read this book: your past does not define your future by bo sanchez (this book is published in the philippines). this book has really helped me alot.

I'll make you feel good if you want to

Advice I can give.
Don't give in 2 the pressure that U were in any way 2 blame, caused it Or asked 4 it!
U can survive this, U R Strong, stronger than U think.

I can't relate but I can send U lots of kind thoughts.

U need 2 lose the Envy/jealousy, it will eat U up.
Start 2day as a New day.
A New day that U can look yourself in the eye in the mirror & make a start @ getting over the abuse.

i had the same problem when i was young,but i was lucky enough to find a loving partner,who got me through the bad times,depression is a terrible thing to have,i hope this helps you,and to let you know that things will get better,if you wish to talk some more,email me

This is not really advice just information about those struggling to move on. There are four male suicides for every one female suicide. Why?

Alot of people have gone through really bad experiences in life, sad to say majority of this world has suffered child abuse, maybe even worse than you (including me)
but you have a choice.. this type of stuff can make you stronger where you can take this experience and apply it to friends or people you see that might possibly be leading towards that situation or protect your child from that one day happening to them.. or you can let it affect you which will leave you stuck in square one, but ending your life is not the answer. People probably envy you for being able to go through an ordeal and speak out. Whoever may have brought pain to your life it will come back to them, Karma is a B**** but don't let strangers ruin and affect your life. I know you're stronger than this and you may not see it now.. but you will one day.. I hope I was of some help.. =]

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