How did things become so bad for me?

Hi and thats for reading this if anyone does.

For almost 3 years I have become agoraphobic, I am a married mum with 2 children aged 6 and 4.

Whilst pregnant with my 1st child I developed candida which never went but instead took over my organs causing me years of pain...please read this if you don't understand and think that i just have thrush like symptoms.Symptoms are at the very bottom of this page

http://store.healthplusandmore.com/Candi...

I cannot lead a normal life as I feel sick 80% of the time and dizzy.

I have seen a doctor but due to my severe needle phobia ( worst my doctor has seen) he referred me to a therapist on the NHS to treat my needle phobia.

But because I have agoraphobia and I couldn't travel to attend the meetings both my treatment for agraphobia and needle phobia have been stopped.

My life is slipping away right before me...i dread waking up in the mornings.

CONDINUED BELOW

I chose to ignore my husband and children as I don't want to be alive hurting them any longer than I have to.
So I lock myself away on my pc chatting to my online friends.

I have no family or friends.


The doctor and health authority have given up on me..I can't afford private.

Any hope for me?

Honey, be brave...to be honest, life could always be worse. Praise God that you do have a family that loves you and that you are alive. God can heal you, he may take time to heal you because His ways are not our ways and we will never understand his reasons, but be patient, I know it is hard. Keep going to the doctors and take any pain medication they may give you that helps. I am 26 years old, I have had 6 major surgeries in the last 6 years and the most recent was a 3 level fusion on my lower back, I have fibromylagia, and chronic migraines so I understand pain, but I am thankful that I am alive. You are brave, girl!! You are strong!!

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I also went through a bout of depression where I wanted to die because of the pain, I am now on Lyrica which is a new medication for pain that deals with nerves, it is not a narcotic and I have had no problems with side effects. I am also on anti-depressants and they help alot. I spend a lot of time with family and talk on the phone to friends as much as possible. I don't leave the house much because I can't sit or walk very long so my computer and the phone are my only outlets to the world. Chin up!! Reach out to those who love you, I am sure that they are longing to help you! You are hurting them more by keeping yourself away.

I used to be agoraphobic, and I might suggest reading some books on natural healing. They helped me a lot. (Also, facing my fears head-on helped -- it was, yes, a slow and painful process, but it helped tremendously. If you have children, you have EVEN MORE reason to face your fears head-on - bite the bullet and just do it - than I did -- I have no children.) Dr. Maureen Salaman is an excellent natural healing author with books like All Your Health Questions Answered Naturally. There are also many, many other resources. The problems you have sound like they stem largely from the candida, which, from what I understand, can cause digestive problems that can lead to other problems -- and digestive problems should never be taken lightly -- the digestive system affects every function in the body. If it's upset, other functions become upset, and these things can lead to depression and, it sounds like you may have emotional problems that are caused, at least in part, by something clinical. That's the reason I suggest natural healing. People don't realize that every drug has something natural in it. (Man does not CREATE anything -- only God creates -- he created plants, etc. with healing agents in them. Man only takes those healing agents and invents or combines to produce the end result.)

I, myself, have had tremendous success overcoming terrible hormonal problems, enormous benign tumors on my uterus (doctors insisted I have a hysterectomy -- I used natural healing, homeopathic herbs and remedies, etc. to shrink them and erase the symptoms from my life), and I've used these natural remedies, etc. to overcome digestive problems that caused joint problems, aches, pains, and fatigue that made the quality of my life very low. Please consider natural healing. For me, it's the first thing these days I try, rather than a last resort, because I've found in the last ten years that it just plain works better than conventional medicine. And please also consider just facing the fears of agoraphobia head-on, especially since you have children and you can't really afford not to have a life. Do it for THEM. Yes, it sounds like it may be clinical, BUT that doesn't mean that courage won't help, too. You DO have family and friends. I have no husband and no children -- and I must tell you, from where I sit you have it good. If only I had had a spouse and children, I might have spared myself a lot of the hell I went through facing agoraphobia and all the other problems associated with hormonal imbalances, including manic depression and bipolar. Locking yourself away from your children is hurting you and them. Don't hurt your children and then regret it later. Do what is necessary NOW. Time is wasting, and your life with them is waaaaaay tooooooo precious.

Good luck to you and God bless you. I hope things turn around for you.

you say you have no family but you said you have 2 kids and a husband. thank god you do have them ,dont lock yourself away from them . i myself went through a bad depression , my doctor put me on prozac he said it needs to be put in the water. it realy helped me, i dont need it now thank god. read your bible and pray . try and get out and do something with your family .i hope you get better and god be with you always.