Anyone with amphetamine addiction?

up till january 2006 i was flat out on amphetamine(speed) i was taking an ounce or more a week, plus drinking very heavily, i was close t death, i suffered extreme cycosis and paranoia. my weight was around 8 stone, and 1 of my kidneys had started t giv up, my liver was damage, and the damage ive done t my brain only time will tell. any1 else with similar problems. and find it hard t get of the stuff. ile cut da long story short. i managed t get into a detox were i spent 10 days, then spent 13 weekd in a rehab. i was clean and soba for around 18 months, trouble os over the past 3 months ive started drinking again and taking amphetamines. not daily and no where near wat i used t b like. but im again finding it difficult wen i aint on it. im tryin t do just weekends, so i end up pheting from friday till sunday night. come down pretty much sleep till tuesday. the longest i ever stayed awake was 11 nights 12 days. any1 else want t share there problems with phet, mayb we can help eachothr

also does anyone have any medical facts on how long the human body can actually go without sleep or food, before it actually will shut down and die. not that im wanting t try these medical facts, but im just curios.

I had a similar problem about 8 years ago. I was so near to rock bottom, but only realised it when I found the woman who is now my wife. There is no other way than to stop completely. How you do this is up to you - you know yourself best - but don't make allowances for yourself. Don't pretend that it's only going to be weekends. It's not. It will start that way and escalate. You know you are making excuses to justify what you are doing. However you do it, you must stop yourself. There WILL be a point when it's too late. Stop. Stop and ask yourself if there is a reason to carry on living. You gave yourself the opportunity to survive before. The second time may be the last chance you get. Seriously, think of what you're doing. Remember, I've been through this.. I didn't want anyone telling me what to do but you are putting it out there by asking on this forum. You want help. You know things aren't right. Get some help. Really.

geeeeeeeeeeeeez you need help mate!!

I'm still not sleeping from the stuff from Saturday... Horrible stuff like washing powder too.

No, you are not just curious, you want to know for a reason (do not lie to yourself). Yes man, I know where you are coming from, so I am going to give you some advice on this. Your addiction is not so more an addiction as it is a habit, and this is why you find it so difficult to quit. It is no good saying you just gonna do it on weekends or something. If you go down that road, you'll surely end up where you started. The reason why you find it difficult to go on when you are not on it is just because you are always on it. Just give yourself a chance. Now you need to learn how to get on with things like the rest do, but this will take time. If you keep doing it your kidneys will finally give in and you will end up badly injured. You might as well die. Another thing that will help is to engage in social activities with others (cycling, trekking, video games, dunno) and leave the old pals behind. In fact, you need to leave behind all trigger factors that will put you into a position you might not like. Just do not expose yourself for some time and do not keep things under the hat. I know it is hard, but you gotta try man.